Just feelings

All verbal on this one, no pictures this time. Writing and not posting any pictures so you guys can pay attention to what I write instead of looking at the picture and being too lazy to read the entry. I don't know how I should be feeling at this point, but right now it feels good about what I got, at least what I got waiting for me in cali. She really is unbelievable to the point where its way to good to be true. How did I ever meet someone so good to me like this. It might be crazy to feel this way right now, but I am known for being crazy and I live a crazy life with all the things I go through. I look forward to talking to her all day. There are times when I think I might have messed up my chances, but I am always overthinking it. I hate how my mind is like that. Shes very different from the one before and its a huge drastic change. Its been so long since I've actually intended to get close to someone like this and the future looks great from here. California has the best for me. I can't wait to get back. I'm giving you the green light to say whatever you want and do whatever you want. Yellow light for you to slow down because your so nice and it feels so good and its way too much for me to handle, but I am in love with it because I never had "nice" before. Red light..doesn't work because I don't want you to stop. Confused? I am too.